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It is rightly said that "It takes few minutes to take any quick decisions, few seconds to hurt someone but a life time to forget someone". I am going through the same phase now. I was in love with someone whom I thought was made for me, for me alone. We had started discussing about spending the rest of our life together but things didn't work as we thought and she had to move to another city. Finally, we had to let go our relationship and now we are just good friends. 


I still miss those moments we shared together, the time we spent together, the fights we had, the affection,  the possessiveness she had for me. I am sure that she too loves me as much as I do. The love which I showered on her, could not be poured to the same extent on someone else. Deep inside my heart I am afraid of my future thinking what will come next. 


The second half of this year has been the worst for me. Somewhere something is holding me back, not allowing me to come out of this difficult phase. A lot of time I act like I am fine, I smile for everyone's sake. There is a sadness behind my fake smile.


I wonder why things have to change. Why do people have to move away. Whats the point in being together in the first place if people are just going to be snatched away. I hate this. I feel like leaving everything and staying alone somewhere. There is so much pain inside. We aren't bad. Why did things have to turn like this then. Why does it happen that most of things we look forward to so much never turn out to be as much fun as we thought they would? And why is it vice versa all the time? Do expectations reach that great heights that they become impossible to meet?


Everything including my social life, my relationships went out of control. I am trying to take control of it but it seems to go on and on. It disturbs my heart, my life. Help me God, I seriously don't know what to do.